Monday, December 29, 2008
Happy Tuesday everyone! This MAY be my last post of 2008 - not sure yet. But just in case, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Now, let me present....
Brookeybaby's Personal 2008 Year in Review.
What can I say about 2008? First, I can say I'm so thankful to have lived another year - happy and healthy. My friends and family are happy and healthy. God is good, and I've celebrated so many blessings this year.
I loved this year. I loved hard. Loved my family and friends. I gave some awesome hugs in 2008. Almost everyone on the receiving end of those hugs deserved them - some didn't. But you know what? Those hugs felt good at the time - and that's all that mattered.
I forgave this year, and asked to be forgiven. It wasn't always easy, but I did it - and I'm healed because of it.
I learned this year. So many things...
I learned that you can't make friends be the friends you want them to be, but that you have to accept them just the way they are. If you can't, let them go. I've learned that all I can do is be the type of friend I'd want to have....and that's not always easy. I learned I may not always be the best friend in the history of friends - but I can always try. I thank all my friends who accept me, just as I am.
I gave a lot in 2008. I gave my time, my love, my space, advice, hugs, kisses, body, mind, soul, spirit, gifts.....me. And I received just as much...if not more. I learned I can always give more. Love more. Hug more. Kiss more. Be More.
I learned to speak up for myself - at work and in my relationships. I know my worth, and I asked for what I wanted. Maybe in 2009 I'll get it ;-) Let me amend that - I WILL get it in 2009.
I learned sometimes it's good to NOT GET what you ask for. God knows what's good for you...and what isn't.
I set goals in 2008 - some of them I've achieved. Some not. I will set goals again in 2009...more realistic ones. Attainable ones. Don't get me wrong, I'll still dream and reach for the moon and the stars. I'll grab a fistful....two fists full :-)
I made some great friends in 2008, and I've lost a few. But I've learned that if I could lose them, then they weren't friends to begin with. I held on to friends...tight. I tried to breathe life into old friendships while sinking my teeth into new ones. I tried to let all of my friends in 2008 know how much I appreciate them, and I will try to continue that in the new year, God willing.
In 2008 I took chances, made mistakes, felt sadness, got my feelings hurt, rebounded, felt relieved that I got my joy back, congratulated friends on new births, got out of my comfort zone, got back in it, lost weight, gained it back, lost some again. I missed my family, made good use of my personal time, realized I don't give myself enough personal time, put others' needs before my own, set some boundaries, stuck to my guns, folded when I shouldn't have, second guessed myself, done things I knew I shouldn't have, done some silly things, laughed at myself, laughed uncontrollably, laughed through heartache, smiled when I wanted to be sad. I listened, I talked my friends' ears off, stayed up late when I should have gone to bed, lost sleep over things that in the end didn't even matter, and talked all night about everything and nothing and loved every minute of it!
In 2008, I witnessed history (President Barack Obama! still loving that!)
This year marked another year of personal growth and wonderful experiences that taught me some of life's abundant lessons.
In 2009, the truth is...I have no idea what's in store. All I know is I'm ready for it. This year, instead of making a laundry list of things that I resolve to do, I will simply say this: This year, I'm putting myself back on the list. Oprah says in this month's issue of O Magazine that she "took herself off the priority list."
So did I.
In 2009, I'll rise back to the top of my priority list. I'm not sure I was ever really at the top of it. In 2009, I'll get there.
I'll take better care of myself. I'll eat better. I'll move more. I'll be a superstar at work while realizing I can't do EVERYTHING and that the work will still be waiting for me tomorrow. I'll go home at a decent hour. I'll get more sleep. I'll cook for myself and pack my lunch more. I'll set a budget and stick to it. I'll make better investments - with my money, my time and my energy. I'll continue to nurture those relationships that enrich me, that elevate and renew me. I'll let some things go...some people go, that don't uplift me or encourage me. I won't apologize for being a little selfish. I'll pamper myself. I'll listen to my body. I'll feed my spirit. I'll trust myself and listen to God. I'll realize that I'll have more to give of myself - my best self - when I take care of myself first - when I put myself at the top of the list.
Now, maybe that seemed like a laundry list to you :-) But if I put myself AT THE TOP of that list, all of those things - everything ON that list - will just naturally fall into place. The only thing I resolve to do in 2009 is simply put myself BACK ON THE LIST...and work my way to the TOP.
What is your 2008 personal truth? What do you resolve to do in '09?
Give me your year in review and I'll see you in the New Year! Be safe! Many blessings!